Tuesday, 9 June 2015

Life Bytes I - time for introspection!!!

Life isn't about slogging your buttout to save those extra million bucks in your bank account. Life isn't about how mechanically you place yourself to those it-has-to happen types ongoings like marriage, children, retirement, pension. Life isn't about just keep wishing and praying nothing bad should happen and not to risk it out at all, keep safeguarding and escapism. 

I wonder how certain people are so paranoid about life that they plan for next Fifty years, chalk it out methodically and live in those four bounded walls strictly adhering to what they want in life...and believe me! it works for them!!!

This scares shit out of me!!! as in being stupid, might be I am a good for nothing, messed up, aimless and I don't have a goal in life...I sometimes end up in those sleepless, wide open eyes thoughts or an idiotic never change look on my face about what am I doing?? Am I just drifting with the wind??Will I ever get that sense to plan, execute, succeed whatever expected out of me by this society in next Fifty years?? Well! I am not sure...

I buck up myself saying life is short term goal-setter, its about live-that-moment decisions, its about the small victories and the small battles you win everyday, its about moving on with other options while you lose one. After all Life isn't that bad!!!

Falling in love, liking, connect, care, relations, kisses, hugs, nonsense talks..silly fights..bitching with family friends, reading good or bad, humming songs in shrieking voice, eating fries, watching movies, drinking coffee at a petty shop, giving a treat for no reason, partying, road trips, heavy petting, shopping on gift coupons etc etc and this list never ends...that's life and I am hopeful...

Monday, 30 March 2015

Shades & Shadow

Ah! Nights are falling fast
I wriggled to fight hell
Phantom beckons to his kingdom
I run away as if its my last!!

Those hands enthral me tight
I beg light to unveil
Wounds grow reddened deeper
I kick my little limbs but frozen

Dark shadows covering dusk
Tears burned in to ashes
Stars lost twinkling spark
Wolves hound waves crashed

I grew big bigger to sky
Shred those spirits halves
Beam of faith warmed my face!
Soldier in me cried out with joy...

Wednesday, 4 March 2015

Sweet Sugar, Pepper'd salt..A life half way thru!

She hoped he will look back but nothing happened…as usual!. Sometimes she wonders what keeps him going…is it thirst for money, power, position or just to hang around there, as it is a male chauvinist society??
She came out of the airport lounge after waving a see off to her husband quietly, who was flying to US for few weeks. When she hit the road memories kept gushing and she sighed…
She is in her forties and they say na…mid life crisis develops at this age and every woman longs for a change…does the same thing happens with men also?? She wore herself to ask the same with Lalit once he is back from his trip…
She threw herself on the sofa of her apartment dropping the carkeys on the glass table and just kept thinking…She had a normal life and things got changed after marriage or atleast she felt so…Twenty long years of marriage life, more and more commitments as the years gone by, run after the money, try to prove herself everywhere…amongst all…
She suddenly felt she is ‘lost’ completely lost and had a gulp in her throat…she gasped for the breath and felt the room very warm though it was a winter…
She looked at the wall clock and it was ticking morning 8 o’clock…she resisted to get up and kept laying lazily…did she miss something or she lived full? Turmoil hit again…her body ached as she moved…she cuddled herself…no she stretched…she twitched her lips…like hell what is wrong with me today?? Why am I wishing there should be some one…some one badly…here now?? I could speak for hours, I could freak out, do craziest things, I can laugh loud, cry out…is this the changed I want?? She kept asking herself…she went blank…total one…
She almost knocked herself on the glass table when the phone rang…’hey girl, up for Shimla trip?’…Kanika’s voice heard from the other end…Aditi said ‘Yeah’ and smiled…

Friday, 30 January 2015

ನಿಜವಾದೆನೆ ನಾ ನಿನ್ನೊಳಗೆ?

ನೀ ಅರಳಿದಾಗ ಘಮ್ಮೆಂದ ಮಲ್ಲಿಗೆ
ಸೇವಿಸಿದಷ್ಟೂ ಸುಘ್ರಾಣಿಸಿತು
ಅಧರ ಮಧುರ ಹಿತವಾದ ನಿನ್ನಪ್ಪುಗೆ
ನಿಜವಾದೆನೆ ನಾ ನಿನ್ನೊಳಗೆ?

ನೀ ಮಾಗಿದಾಗ ಕಾಯಾದ ಮೊಗ್ಗು
ಸವಿದಷ್ಟೂ ಹೆಚ್ಚು ಸಿಹಿಯಾಯಿತು
ಮಡಿಲಾದ ಮನಸು ಹಿಡಿಯಾದ ಕನಸು
ನಿಜವಾದೆನೆ ನಾ ನಿನ್ನೊಳಗೆ?

ನೀ ನಲುಗಿದಾಗ ಝಲ್ಲೆಂದೀ ಎದೆ
ಬಿಗಿಯಾದಷ್ಟೂ ಛಳಕ್ಕೆಂದಿತು
ದೂರಾಗುವ ಭಾವ ಕಳೆವೆ ಎಂಬ ಜೀವ
ನಿಜವಾದೆನೆ ನಾ ನಿನ್ನೊಳಗೆ?

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