Saturday 20 December 2014

Finding a night....!

From the hotel room that night I watched…Shadows of three four boys up to something…My imagination ran and I zoomed in my eyesights… Looks like they were having fun through mobile merrily hitting each other... I thought might be one more MMS rushing their adrenaline which brings their horses out…

Oh! look there…a dog is relieving on that lamppost as if it is the only place on earth where it finds it most peaceful...Under those dim lights from a bar I can see red eyes drenched in its own sadness… I turn my head right….from hotel next, he is ready to bring the heaven on earth for her beauty and she smiles…their structures fades away in to the dark soon…

I tried to expand my eyes and stare beyond that road….mind raced on every creatures beings walking biking driving…One wore dark glasses in night hiding his sorrows underneath…Sparks coming out of shielding in a nearby workshop burnt my anger as I flew with them…

thick droplets started pouring down…tip tip tip…I felt earth cried once for all…I could see a father running inside a petty shop holding his kid’s hand avoiding the rain…shopkeeper welcomes them with a broad smile…I felt better….they both were talking in high voices…I felt they cursed the rain which was falling in Dec…Kid is vividly looking at those colorful peppermints and gets one to chew…I felt my heart heavy…mostly I remembered my dad…

I dragged my look towards the sky...it was dark…!! I better concentrate on the road…

I watched those neon lights…shadows had changed…I could see smoke rings touching the sky whirling…ciggies say do not smoke…but I wonder…heart thumps what if it is a dope and they are in trance…che che….not possible…

I came out to the real world by two bikes’ wheelie sound…young boys...warm blooded animals…all are running…fast and fast…everyone wants first place…I was too…run on wheels…for what??? But run…


now I stand behind these hotel railings…I stopped…took a deep breath…take my steps back slowly slowly…see my right left…world is still running…though its night!

Lil' Confused soul!

This is not any sort of anti-love funda but my thoughts oscillates between lots of stuffs about what you call ‘Love’…
What is and why is it that its not within reach of our understanding….???

They say a guy and a girl can never be friends…does it mean at the end its all about Sex???
thoda love thoda sex and thoda cheating on each other…is it all that???If it is only that you have pros…go and finish it off…

For me atleast love has to be lifetime…else these breakups are all just to do with infatuation or crush and temporary…
I tried to analyze it within my circles but more and more I realize at some point of time we all slip...is it natural human instinct????Why cant it be like how I love my dad, my mom, my bro….!!!
Might be that’s how we are all designed…to love some one very deeply or not to fall for it but just keep resisting due to some obligations we forsee…

That’s why it continues to be a big question for me forever and I might never get any answer…

Home alone on this X'mas...

When Kevin says "this is my house and I have to defend it"....that broils my stomach and makes me homesick…
I me being tangled into many worries, happiness trying to unleash from them in hopes of getting into one more new phase of life…

I dream of those beautiful relations I got into…I wish for those whims and fantasies of travelling come true…
I want those reindeers to ride me into sky…I beg Santa to fill my goody bags with full of colorful stuffs….I wanna dance with snowman between those pine trees…
I like those cool breeze sweeping my face cooling me within….I hope to stay calm like those twinkling stars…I will keep child nurtured within me…
I sing, smile, laugh….I mould myself stronger and stronger… I will defend me…

X’mas is a festival of perpetual hope...I am sure my love of me will be with me….